☭ monophonic taxi ; How can I sleep with the annoying sound emitting every Friday afternoon? Have some tolerance, you terrorists.

I woke up with searing pain all over my body. Had to sleep sharing my comforter with Herr J because he gave his quilt for Maen without thinking that if biology is correct, Maen shouldn't have any problem getting warm. I even peed a little because of the difficulty to get out of bed. Why am I the one who has to suffer when he's the one who never think logically about other people except for himself?

Was to go get the glucose screening today but I don't know why Herr J said I don't have to. I ate chocolate because there's nothing else for me to drink. I've finished my milk and the maternity milk, and knowing Herr J, I don't know when I'll get to buy stuff for me. I have 0 money. My mother gave extra money since I'm pregnant and he went to buy just one pack of maternity milk worth 30 bucks and waste the 70 bucks change for gas and ciggies that I don't even get to smoke but he made me pay for it. I really regretted giving him a hundred.

Everything is supposed to be settled by this week, the marriage course, the marriage certificate and the glucose screening. Not to forget his car, he has to go bring it to the workshop because the wiring went kaput. It kept overloading the charges until all the colorful relay thingimajig got burnt. So in a random (mostly when we had important things to do) day, his car wouldn't start and he had to change the relay from the remaining good ones. Which means we can go without air conditioning or power windows or lights or all of it. The last time this happened we went without all of that and the radiator. So he said he wanted to bring it to a workshop. But it's been 6 days and he hasn't brought it yet because everytime I wake him up early in the morning he'd say he's scared it will take a long time to repair it. That's why I woke him up early, genius. Now he kept going around with the broken car knowing perfectly well that in doing so he will make it worse.

He never does things on time. It'll take days and weeks to get him to do important things. But if somebody asked him for a game of wasting money he'd drop everything and just go. I'm the one who has to save money everyday, buying cheap version of everything that I like or even say I don't want it just so we can have a roof over our head and food to eat. i'm pregnant and even I can control my craving, he eats as if he has money. If I don't save we can't pay the rent and bills and everything. He should be paying my phone bills now instead of my dad, I'd like to see him not wanting to call his friends just to talk anymore because he's going to pay 200 per month. He reloads his phone like once in a few months. Now I have to bake a cheese layer cake that I wont get to eat or earn money from. I do everything, he delivered it and he gets the money people pay for the cake. Where the money went to, a whole night's games of lucky ball should be able to finish it.

My whole body is in immense pain and I am very thirsty and terribly under duress. The only solution is to drink either coffee or tea. Guess what I'm having.

So I went to the kitchen right, and there's a pile of dishes waiting for me. SERIOUSLY. When these ungrateful assholes leave the dirty plates and mugs and cutleries around, who did they think will have to wash it? Do we have a maid? Do I have 3 lazy insensitive uncaring husbands? If I don't wash it, it will stink and if I do, they will never learn to pick up after themselves. Now I have extra minutes doing work for other people instead of resting and making sure my baby is well rested and okay. Thank so much for everyone's concern! I know all of them are stupid but they should know that I'm pregnant and I get tired/pain easily considering I have eaten nothing to replenish my energy. How hard is it for them to was one plate and one mug instead of leaving plates and mugs in the sink wishing their god will make it disappear? That's why I hate sharing my stuff, they used my fork and spoon and guess who will have to clean their dirty dishes when I want to use my own fork and spoon?

Now give me one reason why in hell I should stop smoking and start smiling.

Labels: Familie

☭ monophonic taxi ; you want to turn around, turn around for you

My organizer arrived last week, it's so cute! It came in a plastic casing so it wouldn't get dirty or scratched in my bag. I should buy this every year! I would love this too, because I'm anal about my finance but I have my acemoney software so I wouldn't need this. Need to know about shipping rates because the freaking organizer costs only 6600kwon! I paid like a gazillion times more!

I wanted a fresh change but in the end I reverted back to my old layout because it felt like something was missing. Pfft.

Am having severe nicotine withdrawal. I need my ciggies!!! I think it's better to just drastically limit my cig rather than give me quotas. The craving will be less painful. Talking about craving, yesterday I craved for sweet pastries like crazy I got restless. Yummy chocolate/cheese/chicken floss buns because he helped Kak Shima on Monday and he brought the leftovers to his office. Her pastries are legendary, I can feel the rich taste in my mouth right now @__@ I didn't want to ask Herr J to buy me them because he needs his rest. He's been working all night lately. Today I got my buns but they taste like sandpaper. Huh.

25th// Baby is fine and very hyper, I feel like he converted my tummy into a jungle gym. Went for the checkup today. My pee result is still green! I've got sugar in my fucking pee! I've been drinking the medicine religiously (so I skipped a few doses, it tasted eww-y). Now I have to undergo the diabetes test in precinct 9. I've heard so much bad stories about the godawful service and the staff! My appointment is for this Friday. I have to fast from 10pm the night before, go to the clinic drink glucose and pee, fast for another 2 hours, and pee again! Now I have to drink plenty of plain water, which made me feel like I'm undergoing a Chinese water torture. I absolutely abhor tasteless water! The plainest water I've ever drank was glucose! Anyways I hope I'm not diabetic. I just ate a huge bar of dark chocolate. Drinking all this plain water makes me more hungry for something sweet and now I crave for more chocolates than usual!!!

My next checkup for baby is on 9th of February, a day before my final starts. Herr J found someone to take care of me during my confinement, Kak Shima's sister, Kak Zila. I never knew she can do this sort of thing. So now everything is good, we're just waiting for baby to come out~! Baby heart beat is 145!

Baby very very very feisty, he fusses about if I lean on my right side. Less movement if I lay on my back or my left side, but still, I can see my tummy rippling when he kicks or elbow jabs me =| I think our baby is going to be a natural MMA fighter when he comes out. Can't wait to meet you, baby!

Labels: Bebe, Marbles Bubbles, Stuff

☭ monophonic taxi ; all the meaningless and empty words I prayed

Waiting for Herr J to come back from work. This week he doesn't have to go to his Fitness First job so he has the daytime to recharge. I have a midterm paper at 11am today, that's why I'm blogging.

Baby moved when I was studying but now he's asleep again. Baby is very very very active. I'm on my sammich break. Checkup today after my midterm. I hate the tetanus jab!!! Do I have to go through it again or what? My labor bag is almost packed. Baby stuff is all there, though I'm not really sure what the hospital offers. I'll be delivering at a government hospital so is it good to assume that I'll probably have to bring everything myself?

1016pm// Had my midterm, then went back home because Herr J was still tired. I cooked lunch, woke him up at 3pm so we can go have the check up. We didn't notice that the appointment was for 2pm, we got there around 430pm, luckily they just did all the work, not without fuss of course, oh well, our fault. Baby is healthy, and now the doctor said that according to the measurements, baby will be due on the 19th of March. Looks like 15th March is still in the game. Nurse told me to cut my carbs, I was only supposed to gain 2kgs per month. Oh baby now weigh 1.7kg, he was 1.4 2 weeks ago. I also need to drink this med thingy because my pee had sugar in it, and I had to go for another checkup next week. This is because I drank tea! I've been without any sugar for weeks but a few days ago, and today, I drank some because I miss the taste! I drank Anmum everyday now!!! Didn't get the jab or any blood test, maybe because we were late or whatever, I don't know. Also starting from tomorrow I had to do the fetal movement chart thingy. I was suppose to do it years ago, heh. Everything I know prior to all the checkups is from the innnernet.

Earlier this morning when Herr J came home he asked if I want to work at his place. I kept asking him if he told the guy that I'm in my third trimester of pregnancy, he said yeah and they said okay since this is only part time post. The pay is 10/h which is better than FF 7/h. The job is basically being a human scantron. Yeah in my old post in the old blog I did write about this, the one that I thought a machine is used to check the scantron scores, and that I was wrong, that millions of UK students scores rely on zombies keying in a, b, c, d and their id numbers here in their former colony. Yeah, that job. They usually need tons of part timers during exam weeks, and then they will fire those who doesn't perform (puny humans who couldn't jab a,b,c,d the fastest and most accurate). A guy in the office actually got 15k a month doing OTs. Yes I couldn't understand my sentence either. Too much naps! Basically if you submit too much errors or too little output, you'd get sacked. I think I'd do okay on the abcd but I'm a little scared of the ID thing. People's handwritings are atrocious. I might make many careless mistakes, mistaking 0 for 6 or shit like that. Anyhow, I hope they let me work. I don't like being SAHM.

Tomorrow I have to do the laundry and iron clothes for the marriage course this weekend. BORING. Oooh can't wait to get my organizer!!!!

Labels: Bebe, Familie, Marbles Bubbles

☭ monophonic taxi ;

Went for a light dinner last night at the Ice Room at Kota Damansara. The food sucks donkey balls. I ate tiramisu and drank mango juice. The fruit juices and the snow ice series were yummy and really worth it, just don't order the food because it was way below par. Herr J ordered spaghetti with cream sauce and it tasted like instant noodles, only worse. My FIL ate carbonara and the sauce was runny and he said it tasted like it came from a can. My tiramisu was average, I didn't experienced any epiphany while eating it. The service was slow and very unprofessional.

Then we went to pyramid because Herr J wanted to play lucky ball. Was going to watch Tourist but since all his kakis were there, he played snooker instead. There was a new worker there, his name is Aung too. My left arm still hurts after the tetanus shot but today it got better.

Labels: F and B, Marbles Bubbles

☭ monophonic taxi ; How'd I end up here to begin with? I don't know. Why do I start what I can't finish? Oh please don't barrage me with the questions to all those ugly answers. My ego's like my stomach, it keeps shitting what I feed it.

Went baby stuff shopping yesterday. Got baby a pair of long sleeve shirt with pants & mittens, newborn diapers, towels, toiletries, bottles just in case. Baby's bedding stuff and bath basin later. Just started drinking milk for mums because my mum insist on it, before this I just drank tonnes of fresh milk and soy milk. I paid for everything. My MIL said Kak Amy will give some of Zharif's baby clothes, she already packed it. I need to find suitable top for breast feeding, those with buttons in front!

How do I make Herr J understand the concept of saving money and eating only when you need it, not when you're hungry? How do I make him understand that I'm heavily pregnant, my feet hurts, my whole body aches when I sit or stand or walk long period at a time? How do I make him understand that dota and lucky balls are less important than my overall health? How do I make him understand that I can't bend or pick up things much so he should help me in the house? How do I make him understand that people don't order canned drinks delivery just because they're too fucking lazy and useless to boil a fucking mug of tea? How do I make him understand that he owes me over 2k and counting, that he should reduce all his money wasting habit instead of begging for money from me?


So, went to the new KKIA today. Service was good and super fast for a government clinic probably because we were the only ones there. Herr J found it, it just opened a month ago. We were googling about the old KKIA in Precint 9 and read lots of complaints. This new KKIA is promising. I had my blood tested, peed in a bottle, tetanus injection, then I heard baby's heart beat it was fast and loud!

The doctor said baby is most probably a boy. She showed  me the baby's bird and ball sack. During confinement the KKIA staff from Dengkil will have to see to me since Cyberjaya is actually out of the Putrajaya's jurisdiction. BABY IS HEALTHY!

I have to go for shots and scan in another 2 weeks.

Labels: Bebe, Familie

☭ monophonic taxi ;

As of yesterday, I'm officially married to Herr J <3. It was hectic but what do people expect when they skipped everything and did it in a day? Couple HIV test and a Residency application for me required us to go to KJ. Then after that's done we just had to go back to the office to submit the forms and get married. Both sets of parents were there, Abang Azad, Maen, and my brother, Wan were there too. Our marriage course will be in 2 weeks time.

Went to Pyramid after all that. Saw Asrul & Yap. They don't learn, don't they. Oh we went to the Wak's house before that and had some food. We already ate around 12pm at Amethyst. Wak said he knew all along. Along expressed his support and Herr J wanted to bring me down to Johor to meet them. Lots of thanks to Khairul since his friendship makes the whole bureaucracy bullshit almost disappear.

Labels: Bebe, Familie

☭ monophonic taxi ;

Baby is 30weeks 1 day along. Last night Herr J and I watched fireworks at Sunway Pyramid. Brought my sister, Mi and my brother, Wan to Sunway Lagoon and they slept over at our condo. My sister is having a crisis with her boyfriend of 4 years and Herr J is trying to help her. He said the spirit the widow used was tall and slim, and it came from a mountainous region. My sister said that the widow's people are known to be quite adept in the black arts.

Oh yeah, Happy new year! My resolution this year is to get my life back on track, and to be a good mummy to baby =)

Labels: Bebe, Marbles Bubbles