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Cheating worthless piece of shit gets to have 4k Gucci bags, ugly whores get engagement and wedding rings while I get NOTHING, get all my energy drained and my dowry money STOLEN from me. I can't even access my bank account through the internet because my husband tried to guess the password and failed because he doesn't know me as much as he thinks he does. He doesn't even know what kind of flowers I like because he never buy me flowers. My mouse is ugly. Not to mention I don't even have any portable reading device right now. He promised me a bb because he stole my money last year. I also need to buy either a Kindle, SReader or an iPad to be my ebooks.

I am so depressed I want to die. If he upset me one more time I will cut myself again. Life was more bearable when I cut myself.

Baby J is born 20th March. I went to HSB on Friday to get induced, WAITED WHOLE DAY WITHOUT DRINKING AND EATING BECAUSE MY HUSBAND DIDN'T WAIT FOR ME. Got back because they have no fucking bed. Went back on Saturday, got a bed quite fast. First dose of induce around 1pm. Pain started nearly 7pm. Contraction pain escalated 1am until 6am. My amniotic thingamajig burst at around 6am, got wheeled down to the labor room, writhing in indescribable pain until 1055am when Baby J popped out like an over sized turd. Then out came his placenta.

Stupid godforsaken nurse messed up my pussy stitches. Mine healed in 2weeks when it should be a week.

When my mum goes back to Soviet motherland I have to take care of baby 24/7 because his dadddy will wake up at 5pm, goes online, plays with him for awhile then goes out to work or whatever and will only come back home in the early mornings, play with baby then sleep. I will die.

My mother in law just got back from a trip to Seoul-Nami Island and one more place that I forgot. She got me The Faceshop stuff, facial cleaners, masks, collagen and whatnots.

I have no money.